Saying Goodbye!

So this memory is not a happy one, and I probably wouldn't mind letting this one go when I am done sharing it. In a previous memory I shared a song that reminded me of my precious baby that passed away after birth. Another song came to my memory that reminded me of being in the hospital after my little Brandon was born. I happened to hear the song today and it made me flashback terribly. Yes it's painful but I know it's good to get things out.

I use to really enjoy listening to the christian band Sonicflood. I still love some of their music but sometimes it's difficult to listen to since while I was pregnant with Brandon and after I was listening to them.

Before Brandon was born my favorite song on This Generation album was Everlasting. I would always hear it in my head even when I wasn't listening to it. It gave me peace. For some reason after Brandon was born in the hospital and he wasn't crying but moving slightly, this song started playing in my mind. It hurt so much I had to trust God that there were reasons since I wanted to give up and quit on everything. The pain was too great to bear. How can anyone move on after such a tragedy?

Listening to the song today brought great heartache and tears and took me right back to that hospital room. Precious Brandon will be 3 years old in heaven this August! I miss him terribly!