Attwood

This song brings me back to the endless nights of conversations when I first met you. All I had ever wanted was to be "in love" now, I am not even sure what that means. Iwish you had remembered those nights now the way I still do. You told me you liked my voice when it was all raspy and southern like. The way itbecamewhen it's five in the morning and I was still on the phone with you.You described a girl just like me as someone you wanted to be with. We didn't really have the same music taste,but it did not matter. I was willing to compromise everything for you. Yet, you didn't want me I wasn't the girl for you. Maybe it was the fact that I was too complicated for you. Maybe it was the fact that you thought she was gorgeous. Why would you tell me how to do my hair then?You like it curly not straight because it was freespirited like my personality.How you thought my skin was too perfect. Obviously you needed to get your glasses checked. How I was the most unique girl you had ever met.

How could you not fall in love with me after saying those things? Honestly,what hurt the most was the fact that in the end you used me to get her. Now, you become angry with me when you found out I lied about liking you. What was I supposed to do? Tell the truth? No, I could notbecause telling the truth would mean that I would lose you. I couldn't do that we relied on each other too much. When I finally get the guts to start being the leading lady in my life and not the best friend you call me. You tell me you need my help so what do Ido I plan your damn first date. Not, only did I plan it I made the playlist for when she was riding in the car with you. Of, course this song was on there. I thought this was our song, because this was the first song you ever told me to look up the lyrics and listen too. Hell I don't even like Brad Paisley, but I did for you.

We had a fight about your future and why you wanted to stay here when you could have gone away to school. You know you stayed here for her and I called you out on it. You didn't like that, by then I just didn't care. Two weeks passes by you call me and I listen and wer'e okay. I don't even know why. I think you missed talking politics with me and discussing history current events. ect. You did not get that with her. So, you came to me and you still do. The thing is now my broken heart is mended. I realize I never needed you. The fact is I still don't. You called the other day,but I couldn't bear to hear you talking about her you caught on. Thank heavens I'm a fantastic liar. I called you back only to talk for five minutes then to tell you I had things to do and I had to go. I havn't called back but I was thinking tomorrow would be good. It's kind of funny where life takes you. I met you and I don't regret it at all. You taught me nothing, but the expierence in itself taught me everything. Unrequited love the silent killer that most people have expierenced in their lifetime struck me. I rose above it and dear boy you will always have a special place in my heart. I don't know where life will lead me or if we will stay friends, but I think I'll always be the "other girl" in your mind. I realize now that it's up to me and you do miss me when I'm gone. The only thing is now,I don't miss you .