Being Perfect

When I was still young, I was usually afraid of making mistakes because I was afraid of what other people might say. Even until my college years, I was still very careful of the words that I will say or the things that I‘m doing. In short, I was trying to be perfect to everyone so that they won’t say anything against me. I thought it’s the best thing to do to make myself happy. I guess I was wrong.

As I was listening to this song, I was able to reflect myself. I realized that I was acting like a robot throughout these years and fear is my remote control. It’s the fear of being laughed or talked about. It controls the way I say or do things. Whenever I made a mistake, I was afraid that people would laugh at me and spread it to everyone else. For instance, if I slide on the floor and people would laugh at me and spread it to everyone else. It makes me feel down to see many people laughing at me. It runs through my head over and over like a program on the computer. It’s difficult to deal with fear. I thought that the only thing to deal with my fear is to let it control over me. I realized that I was wrong. Instead of letting my fear control me, I should be the one to control it.

After that reflection, I was starting to act as myself, without fear controlling me. Aside from the reflection, this song reminds me that, as a human being, I often make mistakes. However, these mistakes teach me to become a better person.