loneliness

I was in eight grade when I heard this song. Throughout middle school I was popular, I was in every sport ,I had many friends and had many "girlfriends", it seemed like nothing could go wrong in my life. But during second semester of eight grade year my parents had split up and my dad left me and my mom alone. She had been struggling with breast cancer for a whole year so I was very afraid. I tried to rely on my friends to get some strees relieved but the only sentiment I got from them was rejection. My situation made me feel like a freak. The popular kids in my school never had problems, they never struggled with life or anything else. As much as I tried to rely on my friends for help the more isolated I became. My cousin who lived in Austin at that time told me about a band called Explosions in the Sky who were from Austin. I told him I could care less about an instrumental band. He insisted that it would get me thinking. So I put on this cd in my cd player and all day during school I listened to this one song, over and over until my batteries died. It was like hearing a song about breaking up when you break up with your girlfriend, like a love song when you fall in love. Although it had no lyrics I though it was describing my situation perfectly with its melodies. I would walk around the halls listening to the song and looking around and the whole school was as if it was moving in slow motion, the eight graders pushing the sixth graders around in slow motion, and as soon as I would get my head phones out of my ears it would all go back to normal speed. I decided to stay away from those so called friends and remained the rest of the year walking the halls alone.